August 10th 2009 Monday 2:46pm

I have been sitting in bed, reading for nearly 2 whole hours. I am reading Anne Frank's Diary. Her story is really amazing. Imagine the things she could have accomplished, given the chance! I find myself feeling much like her in some of her entries... That lost and alone feeling. I guess, without the whole hiding for my life thing.. My life right now is kind oflike hers. I cant afford to do much, so I sit here in the back house trying to amuse myself, trying to better myself with hopes that these hard times will pass, and life may go back to normal.

I am waiting to hear from Danny, I hope he calls soon as I haven't  left at all today for food cause I don't want to miss his call. (at this point I had no phone At&t cancelled my service cause I couldn't afford to pay my bill)

I gave Odessa a flea bath today! I saw the traffic of many fleas in her white belly hair, and had enough! This, besides her first, was probably the hardest of her bathes... She was struggling with me and meowing alot more. She fussed so much that to regain a hold of her at one time, she nearly fell underneath the water, scaring her as much as to actually POOP in the tub! It was beyond Gross!

Poor Kitty, It seems my days are just as unexciting as hers...

[6:11pm]

I've decided if I am going to e the strong, independent woman that I want to be, I can't sit around and wait on some guy! I couldn't do the things I wanted to today cause I was waiting on Danny's call... "early afternoon" he says... WELL its early evening and I still haven't heard anything.

I dearly love this boy, but I've dont the love sick teen before... It gets old waiting and driving yourself crazy wondering... Tomorrow I will go out and do the things I have been meaning to do!

Though if Danny happens to call before 8pm... Shall I meet with him or not? I have waited ALL day... but I feel to make a point I should say no.

Does he know I've been waiting on him? He knows the house phone is the only way to get ahold of me.

Phone...Its him.

I feel angry and bitter.

[6:30pm]

I am meeting him in an hour, no use being bored here alone tonight...but if I cant be honest about being annoyed by the situation, (meaning I am going to tell him how I feel about it tonight) then this may end up being the same lovesick, waiting, unhealthy, naive situation. Ack : /